Ok volunteering was pretty fun even though it was freezing and totally knocked me on my ass for the rest of the day. I was up at 5:30am. Fuck. Been sleeping on and off since I got home. I just had a Fiber One bar and a ginger ale in an attempt to cram my body with sugar so I don’t fall asleep again since the coffee I had after my first nap didn’t do it…I’m tired. Probably why I’m cranky and about to go on a tirade.
Definitely supposed to see a friend/guy I’m dating-ish today at some point. We confirmed this at 10am. He was working today but it’s almost 6pm and I haven’t heard from him again. Who knows if that will really happen.
I’m spoiled-mad because my brother is going on a trip with his friends this summer and just using my parents’ money to do so and he’s just allowed to do that. My mum is helping him plan it. I want to just book a damn $2000 trip somewhere and not give a fuck. I just feel guilty spending that kind of money when I haven’t earned it.
Not that I have anywhere to go or anyone to go with as my best friend just returned from a weekend trip to Montreal with a bunch of people she has been slowly replacing me with. A trip I wasn’t invited to at all and she has never spoken about to me. I just know because of Facebook for the love of God. And she also used her parents’ money to go on this trip since I know she doesn’t have a job. So she’s gonna be ~poor~ for a while and probably not allowed to go anywhere else unless she pays for it herself.
My best friend and I are clearly drifting apart. I don’t even know where to begin with that situation. But she not only went on a trip without me she didn’t even tell me about it so that says something.
And my dad is going to work in New York for 5 weeks. My mum was saying she and I will probably go down there and visit him/hang out in New York but now it looks like she’s possibly reneging on that and might just go by herself!
So everyone gets to go somewhere with people and do something great and I’m just here losing my best friend, trolled out of a trip by my own mother, and not even able to set up a proper date with one lousy dude without being stood up or whatever this qualifies as.I’m sad.